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Cool media as of late!

Mon, 25 Aug 2025 09:43:45 GMT

The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells → I've started reading Artificial Condition and it's so good! I always thought that ART was short for something sophisticated and sci-fi, but no, it just stands for 'Asshole Research Transport'. I love Murderbot so much. I've gotten to the point where it looks like MB will be interacting with another team of humans. *rubs little hands together with glee*

We Used To Live Here by Marcus Kliewer → One of the best horror novels I've ever read!! Apparently it started out as a r/NoSleep story, which makes sense. It sort of has that vibe. I found the beginning a little slow, but once the weird newspaper clippings, forum posts, and transcripts showed up, I was hooked. If you're into doppelgängers, alternate realities, and the Mandela effect, I highly recommend it.

I Saw the TV Glow → I thought this was gonna be a funky teen horror movie, and oh boy. Oh dear. It's been a while since a movie has left me silent with a thousand-yard stare like this. Actual trans people have written much better analyses of it than I ever could, but ohhh my heart.

K-Pop Demon Hunters → This movie was SO FUN!! The music is not usually my thing, but I really enjoyed the soundtrack. The animation is lovely! I'm seeing a lot of OT3 art of HUNTR/X emerging from the fandom too. *chef's kiss*

Kill All Your Friends by MCR → (link) this song is fantastic. I've been seriously sleeping on it. Impeccable vibes, Black Parade era lyrics, it's been my constant companion for a week now!

Goodbye Seoul → (link) a pre-apocalyptic dystopian mystery game I play-tested at Gamescom. It's about this girl Rion, who lives in a world that's gone to shit because of an impending mankind-ending asteroid impact in 6 months, and is given a mysterious device by a dying soldier that might save her. I'm not usually into pixel art, but this game is beautiful. I'm very stoked for this game to be released.

The Umbrella Academy → I've finished watching S3 and chose to give S4 a pass, which I think was the right choice for preserving my sanity, haha. Still filled to the brim with feels! I want to start another rewatch soon. Also, I have probably (not really) read everything in the 'Five needs a hug' tag on AO3. This old man hurts so good.

Also: we have a Hollow Knight: Silksong release date! September 4!! Which is also our moving day!!! Hahaha kill me. :'D I fervently hope that we will actually be done with all moving-related things by then (right now, it doesn't look like we will be, but... I'm holding out hope). I play-tested the game at Gamescom, after waiting in line for 3 hours. Ouch. Never doing that again. But it was a lot of fun, and somehow controls even crisper than the original Hollow Knight did. Which I didn't think was possible!

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Sunday night post!

Sun, 20 Feb 2022 19:59:18 GMT

Last week I made a somewhat ambitious to-do list, and on Monday I was already like "haha nope," but then I managed to accomplish quite a few things (baking, writing, tidying, sewing prep). \o/

My new fridge is here and I really love it. I had some OCD struggles about the change™ but I think I'm past that now. It is so lovely to have so much space to store my food. It'll make meal prep & eating healthier so much easier!

In the spirit of writing short & sweet things (instead of 20k+ stuff that never gets finished), I've asked plutodetective for Garashir prompts, and she has already given me some absolutely stellar ideas. I can't, y'all. I have so many feelings and only two hands to write all the things I want to write (clearly it is time to attach robot arms). <3

The Winter Olympics are over! :( But the Paralympics start soon, and I hope they'll be streamable here too. :) My Olympics sweater came along nicely; I have not yet reached the end of my raglan seams, but for now I'm ok with slow progress. My yarn is so beautiful that every stitch makes me happy. I've already had to write down multiple ideas for other sweaters. I really need to finish something before I cast on yet another new project, though! :'D

I started playing Sekiro again, woop woop! At first I tried to get back into it with my older save (I got stuck on top of Ashina castle because of Genichiro), but the relearning curve was so steep that I ended up creating a new save instead. I've already reached the Hirata Estate! This game is so much fun to play, and not as frustrating as I remember it. Maybe I've grown as a person since 2019 lol. I was a bit worried that gaming would aggravate my wrist pain, but when I wear my splints I can play for well over an hour with no issues.

Also, I am so in love with Wolf and Kuro's relationship. Families of choice FTW (also bodyguard/client bonds)! I still don't really understand the timeline of their adventures, but I hear Vaatividya on Youtube has created some excellent lore analyses, so I'm going to watch those soon and hope they'll shed some light on things.

(Is this a good moment to shamelessly plug the Sekiro fic I wrote ages ago? Yes.)

To-do list for next week:

finish reading A Stitch in Time
keep editing/writing Garashir fic
dust plants!
make couscous salad
2 zoom meetings with the writing group
Swedish phone call! ~~eek gotta brush up on my adjectives~~
play more Sekiro & perhaps take a peek at my old fanfic WIPs

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✈✈✈

Fri, 14 May 2021 15:14:56 GMT

✈ My roommate and I just watched Castlevania S4 and we're both emotionally destroyed now. It was SO GOOD. No spoilers, also because I can't even put any thoughts into words yet, but oh my God. Oh, God. FFFFFUUUU-- I'm so happy. The ending was perfect imo. <3

✈ Got my first shot of the covid vaccine last Friday! I was super nervous before the appointment itself, and double-triple-checked if I had all my paperwork in order, but everyone at the center was really nice and patient with me. Aside from a sore arm, I felt no ill effects at all, though I've heard the second shot hits you harder. My second appointment is in June. I will be SO freaking relieved once that's in the bag.

✈ My crafting has slowed down a bit. I'm joining lots of granny squares for my blanket & discovered I don't have enough yellow yarn to finish the stripes... so I may have to buy some after all, although I inteded for the blanket to be a stash-busting project.

I recently had to frog a big section of my Rosewood scarf because I'd dropped a stitch--half a stitch?--a couple rows down. I tried to ladder it back up, but just made it much worse until I decided to unravel to just below the dropped stitch. Then I discovered that picking Fisherman's Rib stitches back up is a pain in the ass, and essentially had to knit & twist every single stitch individually because I couldn't figure out how to do it all in one go. But the scarf is back on track now. \o/

✈ Fandom-wise, I'm back in MCU hell, currently reading a lot of Steve/Tony fic, trying to comment more, and somehow... collecting Darcy/Bucky and Steve/Bucky plot bunnies like I'm running a shelter. I've started writing some of both, and it's at the same time daunting and fun; I've never written MCU fic before, but I really want to try, so I hope that something publishable will come out of this. My main WIP, if it can be called that, is a post-CATWS Darcy/Bucky fic where the Winter Soldier pretends to remember his past life & Darcy finds out about his deception. Also, HYDRA chases him relentlessly while brandishing the trigger words. At one point it'll involve one of my favorite tropes of all time: a roadtrip where Darcy and the Soldier run from HYDRA together. There shall be seedy motels, only one bed, long hours on the road, near-misses with their pursuers, and lots of pining. \o/?

The Steve/Bucky I'm writing is pure, potentially embarrassing self-indulgence: they roleplay an encounter in which Steve 'saves' the Soldier and helps him remember his past. Look, I just write what my downstairs brain wants to read. I don't make the rules here. (That's a lie, I'm actually quite embarrassed for no good reason. But I really want to teach myself to feel less shame about the fluffy h/c fics I want to write. It's not even ~problematique~ content, ffs, I don't understand what I'm so scared of being judged for.

✈ I picked up Hollow Knight again, but I started a new playthrough because I'm frustratingly stuck on the Traitor Lord in my original one. :'D My main goal with round 2 was to get the Dream Nail asap, which worked out surprisingly well, and I had the pleasure of dream-nailing Hornet during our first fight. I also beat her on the first try??! The learning curve is amazing, considering how long I was stuck on her the first time.

✈ Resident Evil 8 is FANTASTIC. I'm watching jacksepticeye play it & so far I love almost every single thing about it; it's the first RE game I've felt the urge to play myself. The environments are stunningly beautiful & I want to take many screenshots & repaint them with gouache. <3 I love Ethan & Mia--I squee'd quite loudly when they revealed 8 would be a sequel to 7 just because I liked them so much. So far, the character that gave me the most feels was Moreau. ;_; I wanted to adopt him and shower him with love, okay. Mother Miranda can suck an egg.

✈ I've somewhat gotten into the habit of taking walks. I stopped running some time last year, and I haven't been able to kick myself back in gear so far, but I thought taking walks is better than nothing! I've downloaded a step-counting app on my phone & it's surprisingly motivational.

✈ Song rec! Baby Don't You Lie To Me by The Fratellis. ♥ I'm currently rediscovering The Fratellis; their music accompanied me through uni, but I hadn't really checked out their newer stuff, which I'm doing now. Most of it is SO GOOD. The urge to learn how to play the guitar is largely foreign to me, but I feel it when I listen to their music. :D

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Lemme smash

Fri, 21 Dec 2018 22:40:47 GMT

My roommate and I have been playing an unholy amount of Super Smash Bros. Ultimate. It is a lot of fun! The controls are a bit challenging for me since I'm not a console gal at all, but I'm doing my best. I love playing Zelda, Pikachu, Samus, and Palutena, and I need to practice playing Mewtwo since he's my favorite Pokemon. :D

The 18th was my birthday & it was surprisingly nice. I'd honestly been dreading it a bit, but it turned out okay. We went out for dinner and absolutely stuffed our faces with delicious Japanese food. My sister called to wish me a happy birthday, which was really cool and unexpected since we rarely talk. I also played a bit of Prey (my hand slipped & now I'm playing male Morgan again lol) and did some research for one of my fanfic WIPs.

I'm 30 now! Wow. I don't feel 30 at all. I guess I thought I'd suddenly start to be more of an adult, but unsurprisingly I haven't noticed any sudden changes. I do think I've done a bit of growing up this past year. I've certainly gotten better at making phone calls (which I hate), and I started bullet journaling again, so my life is a lot more organized now than it was last year!

My anxiety levels have been rather high for a few weeks & it's pretty exhausting. I think it's mostly a seasonal thing. I hope I can find some time to relax this weekend. And I need to pick up writing again--it tends to fall by the wayside when I'm not in a good headspace, but I know it'll make me feel a lot better once I start again. I hope I can get some words out over Christmas!

So I still want to do a WIP post, and I thought maybe it'd be nice to write up a more detailed friends-locked intro post where I tell you guys a bit more about myself? Would that be interesting/informative? God, I'm so out of practice with blogging, I feel like I need to learn how to do it all over again haha. I'm tempted to just post a lot of memes & ramble about the minutiae of the fanfics I'm reading. :D

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'Tis the season to feel stressed

Thu, 13 Dec 2018 17:01:47 GMT

It occurred to me yesterday that Christmas is in less than two weeks (??!) and I have done very little in terms of preparations so far, so today I went shopping for Christmas cards & dropped off my best friend's gift in the mail. I've honestly been feeling quite stressed but I hope that'll lessen once I start sending out these cards.

I'm going to spend the 24th with my lovely roommate! We're gonna do a Lord of the Rings marathon--we'll watch all 3 extended versions back-to-back. That'll keep us busy for sure. Then on the 25th my mom is picking me up for a Christmas lunch with my parents, my nephew, and my parents' BFF. I feel conflicted about it. On the one hand it's ~tradition~, but on the other... stuff that involves my parents is always really hard on me, especially around the holidays. I just hope I'll get through it relatively unscathed.

On Monday night I finished Prey and I just

What the fuck

That is all. -- At least some of my questions were answered in the end! I've been reading Reddit in an effort to better understand all the subtleties I missed & I think I now have a vague idea of what was going on. I also went into the AO3 tag and discovered to my horror that there's not a single Morgan/Jason fic out there! Now I have to write my thing. I've also got to buy the Mooncrash DLC asap. I heard we're gonna get to know another member of the Yu family & I'm really looking forward to meeting them, whoever they may be.

I've been thinking about maybe making a WIP post where I ramble a bit about the fics I'm currently writing. I tend to be fairly withdrawn and insular about my favorite hobby, which is a bit sad--I'm so envious of writers who can just... talk about their WIPs, damn it. I tried to chat about writing on my Tumblr but that website in general just tends to give me that dreaded AllByMyself.mp3 feeling because I know how quickly posts can get buried in a deluge of reblogs. So I'm hoping that DW is more suited to my blogging style. I have a lot of WIPs so that'd be quite a huge post, haha.

My To Do list for the weekend includes:

write Christmas cards
LAUNDRY
work on some fics
start replaying Prey as female Morgan
play Overwatch
maybe cook
make birthday plans

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Come gather 'round, people, wherever you roam ♫

Mon, 10 Dec 2018 14:09:05 GMT

Hiii new followers! ♥ I participated in snickfic's Multifandom Friending Meme and I'm really excited to have some new mutuals. Welcome! I hope you enjoy your stay--there isn't much here yet, but I hope to get back into the habit of blogging and posting about writing and fandom.

I've spent pretty much all weekend playing Prey. I'm not surprised by how much I'm enjoying it because it's by Arkane Studios, who also made Dishonored, which may be my favorite video game of all time. But seriously, it is so fucking fantastic. I love almost everything about it! ( Spoilery rambling - no endgame spoilers though )

The main reason why I'm so excited about Prey is that I acquired a ship along the way: I ship Morgan with his assistant, Jason Chang. :3 We know almost nothing about Jason, except for the fact that he thought Morgan was hot regardless of gender (agreed), that they were on first-name basis--a big deal tbh, considering that Morgan is TranStar's Director of Research--and that Jason was an attentive and reliable assistant.

Just, oh my God, I am so ready to write an OFFICE ROMANCE with unexpected SINISTER UNDERTONES as Morgan changes, with Jason being very confused but trying to be supportive. And like--late night work shenanigans! Jason running into Morgan in the fitness center! Sitting down for a round of chess in the rec room! Inadvisable office sex! Christmas on Talos I! AHHH.

I just love them a lot. I've started writing a thing, but I also have 800 other WIPs to tend to first. :D

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